A Letter to My First Born

Dear Little Girl,

Last Zoo Trip as a Party of 3
Last zoo trip as a Party of 3.

Wow. Your Momma can’t believe how quickly the last 2, almost 3 years, have flown by. Your Momma and  Daddy have TREASURED the time we have had together. The years have truly been some of the most wonderful and most trying times of our lives.

I have never felt less qualified to do anything than I did after you joined our family and it was time for me to be a mom. You taught me that it is totally ok not to know the answers (and that sometimes, I won’t even know the questions). You taught me the importance of flexibility. You taught me to rely on and trust both my instincts and your Daddy’s. You taught us both to know the true meaning of both “it is a good thing you are cute” and “love without end.”

First couple days as a Momma and DaddyThank you for making me a Momma. We tried for a long time to bring you into our lives, and I am so, so thankful to be your Momma. Even though you sometimes make me absolutely crazy, (like pull my hair out and forget whether I showered or not crazy), you have been the best thing I have ever done. Of course I love your Daddy, and I am proud of many things I have done, but nothing compares to the feelings of being a mom.

As we get ready for baby #2, I want you to know that you are NOT being replaced. There will never be someone who could replace you, no matter how big our family grows or how far away you may move someday. Please know that I love you more than you could ever know, even when your brother or sister joins our family. I worry that you will be jealous of the time I will spend with new baby, but please remember I loved you from the moment I knew you were in my tummy.

First family selfie.
First family selfie.

I know you are going to be the best big sister. You are so smart, caring, loving and helpful. I have no doubt you are going to pass on everything you know to your new sibling and teach him or her to be just as independent, smart and adventurous as you are. I love the little momma that I see you becoming already. You love babies (real and pretend); you love to push babies in the swing, snuggle them with blankets, and pat and comfort them when they cry. I am nervous that you will sometimes be overly helpful, but I know your sweet little heart will be in the right place.

Honestly, I am quite nervous to be a mom of two, but I know you are going to be amazing sister. We are so ready to meet your little sis or bro, and you keep telling us that you are excited too.  And since you tell everyone, “I’m a big sister,” we know you are so ready to meet this little person who is almost ready to come out!

Love,

Your Momma

Lindsay
Lindsay was raised in Augusta, graduated from K-State, majored in PR, and met and married hubby, Ryan. They moved to Newton right after graduation where she worked for 5 years in non-profit, then decided to ignore her college degree and become a teacher. She now loves (90% of the time) teaching freshman and senior English. She is the proud momma to Maelle (pronounced May-Elle) who is 3 going on 16, and Tucker, who is 3 months and sweet as sugar and full of smiles. Outside of work, she enjoys working with the middle school youth group, cattle ranching, reading, drinking coffee and Cherry Coke, music and living room dance parties –current favorites songs are “All About that Bass” and anything Disney.